On Friday, I was nervously doing a jigsaw with my littlest as my other children played outside and my husband made pizzas. I felt sick, and I was thinking about how I would justify to myself the rejection of not making it on to the writementor programme.
And then five o’clock came around and I scrolled through the blog post and saw my name.. and then the happy tears came.. You can see the blog post here:
As a writer, you get used to rejection. With my first novel, I reworked and resubmitted it for so many years that I could no longer tell if it was worth anything, or if it was any good or not. And there was a part of me that thought, because it is so much a part of me, and I am so emotionally involved with it, then I must not be able to tell if it is any good. I must have lost my critical ability in the emotion.
Which is why is was so wonderful, and so emotionally overwhelming, to find my name there in that list. It meant that someone else had read it and seen promise in it. It meant that perhaps I wasn’t crazy after all, and that my manuscript had something in it that caught my mentor’s eye.
I am so excited and a little nervous to be working with Melissa Welliver as my mentor, and I just feel so proud of Jay and his voice because she said in a twitter post, that the voice is what grabbed her attention. I’m so excited for the next few months, where we get to work on the manuscript together, to make Jay and his story sing.
I’ll keep you posted on how it’s going.